April 5, 2021

Be here now.

"What I think of as a pretty good standard turns out to be not that good after all... It's a roller coaster of pride and despair as I alternate between how far I've come and how far I have to go. Eventually I come to realize that I can only do what I can do with the tools I have in the moment. I can prepare myself as best as possible, and then I just need to show up, ideally well-rested and alert, to do the best job possible. Every time I do this I get a little better, learn a little more, and grow in confidence. Of course, there are times when that confidence is shattered all over again, but I pick myself up and get on with it."

-- Beth Kempton. Wabi Sabi: Japanese Wisdom for a Perfectly Imperfect Life

She's describing her experience having moved to Japan with the language skills she had, but this describes my journey as a student and instructor at Black Wing Collective too.

I have need to always remind myself that this moment in time is just a snapshot of a longer timeline of learning, improving, and exploring. I am a moving target, and I do not stay still.